In this project I attempted to conquer Change. I tried to teach myself to enjoy Change, to look
forward to it, to become one with it - I found order and logic in it, I saw beauty in it, I began to
understand parts of it, I asked the Ancient Greeks what they thought of it, and my mystic Jewish
ancestors. I searched for a God to hold my hand through it. But it turns out that God is as fickle
and intermittent as Change itself.
I didn’t conquer Change. It was an unwinnable battle,
and I dread the thought that it will always be that way.
The drawings that make up I am Becoming One With Change are like the equations behind an impossible science experiment. In them I tried to untangle seeds of hope from existential fear, imagining a life where change was what I wanted it to be, where I was truly one with it.
Ultimately, this project was an attempt to understand and come to terms with my own neurological disposition after being recently diagnosed with autism. I hope that its outcomes might help people understand how scary it can be, spending your whole life trying to fight an unfightable force. And I hope they help somebody like me find peace in Change. Or at least show them that this peace is worth fighting for.
I didn’t conquer Change. It was an unwinnable battle,
and I dread the thought that it will always be that way.
The drawings that make up I am Becoming One With Change are like the equations behind an impossible science experiment. In them I tried to untangle seeds of hope from existential fear, imagining a life where change was what I wanted it to be, where I was truly one with it.
Ultimately, this project was an attempt to understand and come to terms with my own neurological disposition after being recently diagnosed with autism. I hope that its outcomes might help people understand how scary it can be, spending your whole life trying to fight an unfightable force. And I hope they help somebody like me find peace in Change. Or at least show them that this peace is worth fighting for.